Smile Sermon - 2014 Sign off!

So I haven't done a post in a few weeks, I've been very up and down with various things going on. The inflation of my pouches always leaves me feeling a bit loamy for a couple of days. It bloody hurts man! 

It's not a walk in the park at all. It's not like I expected it to be, but I guess I just didn't expect it to be so irritating and painful! It's a bloody annoying pain though. It's not like an 'ouch'  pain it's a continuous dull ache. That just annoys me so much!

I wish I could just hibernate while this stuff went on with me just floating around in my dreams and then waking up a few months later with all the surgery done and sorted! It will be amazing when it's all finished with! I'm sure it will all be well worth the dull ache in a couple of months. I just feel so impatient with it all going on. 

I've been through a lot of crap in my life, more so in the last year and a half following my car accident. But this patch, this situation with the tissue expanders and the ongoing inflations and surgeries. This patch is by far the worst part!!!

At least while I was in the QE I was dosed up and forgetful! I had friends and family around me all the time and lots of relaxation. THIS, this is just horrible!  I'm seriously going through the hardest few months of my life! I know this is a blog of smiles, a place where I come on each week or whatsoever and share with you readers the things that have made me smile each week. This week, I'm seeking lots of comfort and sympathy! haha 

No, seriously. I've had an amazing Christmas. With SO many amazing presents! Lovely cards and lots of lovely food and drinks. I am very lucky! I do feel very lucky, very lucky to have everything I need and want at the minute in my life. There isn't much more I do want right now other than to fast forward this sore patch. This uncomfortable and sore patch of my life! I would love to just hibernate for the next couple of months!!! 
 
2015 will be a great year for me though! I will be feeling much more back to normal once the surgery is finished with. I'll be looking better, walking better, feeling better and driving better!  It will definitely be a good year for me. Things can only get better really, so when you hit that point, you can only be filled with hope, excitement, impatience and frustration! A mix of emotions! This is definitely the toughest part of things I've dealt with, but I'm a tough little solider and can get through anything. 
I've proven that to myself already! I can and I will get through this and be so happy and relieved once it's finally complete!
 It can't be rushed though. Slow and steady wins the race, as always!  You all know the tortoise and the hare story, I've always, ALWAYS been the hare! I liked being the hare, it was way more fun! But look what happened! The hare lost a bloody leg! haha 


Well, you've all probably seen the various posts on Facebook, the flip of events, statuses etc. I've got a really cool present from my Dad and Anna. I recieved a gorgeous Alleles cover from Canada! A company in Canada that produce beautiful covers to clip onto a prosthetic. Here are a few pics of the cool cover that is now attached to me!  They even sent me a cool pair of earrings to accompany this cool prosthetic cover! Unfortunatley I can only wear one of the earing at the moment, but I will soon have a reconstructed ear lope and I'll be wearing them both proudly! :) Very kind and sweet of them.

So, I've attached the cover to my leg, after ripping off the previous yellow foam that covered it! The foam was good for mimicking the shape of my leg, it made it look like a normal leg when I wore leggings or tights. Now I've got the cover on, you can really see that I'm wearing a prosthetic. Which is fine, I'm not shamed of it at all, it's a survival mark! I'm proud of my leg. But I do want my leggings to look neat and tidy!

I've currently got one normal knee and one spiky metal one, which is very apparent when wearing leggings. I think once I get my new suction socket leg, I'll keep one with foam on and one with this cool cover on. Then I can have it looking smooth in the winter with tights on and then looking cool in the summer when I've got a skirt on and showing off my cool prosthetic cover! Best of both worlds!



I think the boring white socket could do with a bit of art work! I might as well get it painted or something! If I'm going to be wearing this out on show in a mini skirt in the summer, I might as well go all the way! 

I think my next leg will have to be a amazing spike leg like Viktoria Modesta's one here. Now this is a very cool leg!!! It obviously would be a bloody nightmare to walk in, especially with a couple of vodkas down you, but my God it looks cool! Imagine wearing this on a night out! 

I'm actually excited about all the various leg out there now! There are so many cool ones! I will have a wardrobe full of legs in no time! Some of them are very expensive though! Like a running blade, that can be very pricey! But I want one of them too! I have spoken to the lovely Helen, a friend I made from the LimbPower event last year, you can get sponsorships and things. So I think next year I will definitely get myself a running blade and then pay everyone back with sponsors from my runs! :)  

That's my plan! 

Right, I wont be posting now until 2015! :) 

So I want to say big HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone!!! 

Thank you to all my readers for your support and friendship throughout my first year as a blogger. 2014 started off good, it's ending off great, and 2015 will start AMAZING!!